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Monday, July 27, 2009

new blog add. new beginning..

signing off <33
Monday, July 27, 2009

Saturday, July 25, 2009

i really haven been blogging. hahaha

and i wonder why myself.

lets just start with today. slept only at 6am and woke up at 8am

cause dear was rolling around on my bed haaha

wash up, bath and we went out at 10am. met amy and evelyn at admiralty platform

had to go NUS for some registration thingy.

dear dear went home as he got to prepare for his malaysia business tip

initial plan was to meet him up for lunch and maybe movie before he go to mayalsia in the late evening.

but plans change and he got to go malaysia in the afternoon.

the queue for the registration was sooooo long.

chatted with cherie and evelyn. hahahahh

finally the regitration thing is done.. left school at bout 12.45pm

took bus and train with cherie.chatted alot.

i alight at causeway to handle some finance thingy but couldnt cause no NRIC with me.

idiot. but it wasnt a wasteful trip as i went to get assessment book for my tuition kid, nelson.
bought a file too so i can just bring my file out for tuition.

reach home at round 2pm haveing slight gastric..

so i cook maggi mee and ate it at the living room

watch CSI with mommy.

sometime i find her cute when she get older HAHAHa.

was super duper tired and i wentfor a nap at 4pm.

was planning to sleep till night time like round 10pm? hahah

but surprisingly dear dear sms me at 5 plus saying he's back in singapore already.

client wasn't at malaysia.. hahahah

so i met dera at platform at 6pm plus and we head off to orchard.

walk round orchard central.. quite boring..

i saw a cardigan i like~ but dear dear say it's not nice :(

went to heeren to have dinner at macs.

krinstin and roy then came by..

we went out to talk and smoke a while..

talk bout my parents. ai yah...

then we went shopping again at orchard central with them..

left orchard at 10 plus pm..

reached home read up on assessment book

to prepare for tml tuition. hahahahha

talk to dear and en online..

clubbing next wed.. hope i can go.. hahahah

waiting for OGL to reply me.

alright it's 3am now. i shall head to bed..

i will blog bout tml i guess. hahahah

meeting dear! WEEE~~

signing off <33
Saturday, July 25, 2009

Monday, June 15, 2009

as promised.. my blog entry is here~~
went to east coast to cycle with dear on friday..
it was fun. though the sun is hot, the wind is so nice!

we had mac for breakfast cum lunch first..
then dear wanted to try the catch bear bear machine and he caught it!
using only like 3 bucks, he caught a me to you bear for me! WEE!!

stupid handphone.. stupid batt.
ran low batt all of a sudden and i can't listen to songs. but chatted and played with dear while cycling.. it was fun fun fun~
we stop by the new water recreation place and watch ppl play.
looks fun~~
the stunts they do and there are like children that lok super young playing.. so cool~

then after resting, we cycled to the jetty.
alot uncles were fishing there..
they use small fishes as bait. and hook them to the hook.. got blood~
then they will throw them into the sea. till they swim till they die le
then they'll throw them away.. so cruel~ sobs!
while watching uncles fish, we saw a jelly fish in the sea~
so BIIGGG and looks cute~

cycle till 5pm, we took bus to city hall..
slack around at esplanade.. roof terrace..
we talk bout my parents bla bla bla..
took bus back home after that:)
i love hugging dear and sleep at night~ <33

have been talking to dear regarding some issues. it just make me ponder sometimes.. like keep thinking bout how things will be like and so on.. uni going to start soon.. i'm looking forward to the camp. and of course thurs! oh my god. thursday. the stars and spending the night with dear. happy happy me~ i'm looking forward to rag and flag too. sounds fun. ying tong and i going to join! i'm so glad ying tong and i are in the same course. she's lame like me WEEE~

alright thats all for now.. i'm kinda stop working le.. cuase school's goign to start. just spend more time with dear and also prepare some things for uni also!

signing off <33
Monday, June 15, 2009

Friday, June 05, 2009

it's been sooo long since i blog..
i dont know why too. maybe just plain lazy~ opps.
have been working and going out almost every single day.
life's been good.

i've not blog for so long..
so i intend to do just a summary of what's been happening..

working at bukit batok now..
coaching and admin.. peng's dad is in hospital
hui hui is one crazy fellow.
our radio is spoilt in the office.
then hui hui keep disturbing me such that both of us started teasing each other.
we were so noisy then peng say, it's ok the radio is spoilt since there's live show here.
she's mental. oh, boss seem very stressed up nowadays.. bad mood~
working at office can be fun fun fun but can be stress too when we have to rush documents that boss wants.. but coaching is fun though.. especially with kids who are sometimes damn cute hahah. oh i've conducted live shoot too.
it's so nice to be able to coach NPCC .22 revolver. and i got to shoot too
if there's extra bullet at the end training. hahahahah.

have been meeting up with dear almost everyday.
have dinner and sometimes watch movie.. or just walk walk around..
i love tuesday cause it's waffle day.
i love eating waffle with dear. hahaha 3 scoops of ice cream. whipped cream and maple syrup. yums yums. hahahahah.
dea is super good at catching toys la. look at the stitch collection i have at home. hahahah.
i'm so loving it~ so cute~
i love stitch! especially after watching the vcd.
oh dear also caught an elmo for me but i haven take photo :)

we also did this leg band at cine.. so nice~
i like ooooorrrangeee!

3D movie is so cool and nice.. hahahaha
went to watch monsters vs alien 3D movie at cine..
i love BOB and the bbig big bug..
BOB : although i'm brainless, but i've got an idea..
BOB is like DEAR HAHAHAHAHAH
ok just kidding. they are cute la. hahahha
wearing th 3D specs make us look like robin.. so where's batman? HHAH.

dear has move back to jurong to stay.
partly because his brother is back.
partly also because mommy is not feeling very welll nowadays..
office is at bukit batok so it's quite ok to go to boon lay from office~
i'll be looking forward to friday every week then :)
alot has happen in his family ba.. so ya lo..
i dont know what i can do to help also.
WEEE i've confirm my placing in NUS project and facilities management.
cool~ i love this course but but but sigh studying for 4 years more.. hope i can tahan hahah.
alright thats bout it ba.. blog again SOOOOOONN hahahhah

signing off <33
Friday, June 05, 2009

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

out of boredom i went to do this quiz.
saw this at rosalind's blog..

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone   While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
Where Your life is Going
Disappointment
Losing Someone
Commitment
Looked down on
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

hmmm how true.. i think not very.. but hahaha i fear death the most little. thats relatively true for my case i feel. ahahhaha.
recently i dont know why but i just can roam around on my own.
like get a coffee and slack and read my storybook.
oh i finish that book already. WHERE THE RAINBOWS END by cecelia ahern.
it's nice. special in some way.. now i shall finish up twilight..
i love reading. but i'm lazy to go library.
then i spend money to buy storybooks. tsk tsk tsk.
this is what makes the numbers in my bank account decreasing. HAHAH.
alright. didn't meet dear at all today.. tml! miss him~

signing off <33
Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Monday, May 11, 2009

ok i just feel like blogging now.
i know i haven't been blogging. don't really blog nowadays. prefer writing though hahah.
quite alot has been happening in my life.
i guess it is just the time for changes to happen.
hmmm how should i start..

had a 0723c class gathering at a condo on 2nd may.
it was ok ok. the food wasn't that fantastic.
but i had a great chat with cherie..
also crap quite alot with the guys after drinking like 2 can of beer.
eeeks. actually i dont like beer. hahah.
went home at bout 10plus.

when i look at the picture, i can help but laugh.
cause all the guys have the same hairstyle.. HAHAH
some even have the same look, just like brothers. hahah
somehow i am happy to attend these gatherings once in a while.. it's nice to just catch up with the girls.. knowing how they are doing these days. most of them have said they've recieved their uni acceptance letter. WHERE'S MINE!! great i'm uber worried now. i'm waiting~

life has been good with dearest with me.
to me. he's the one. the right one for me:)
sneaking out at night has been fun but i haven't been doing it anymore.
but hmmm.. it's fattening too.
i think i've grown fatter la. cause we're alwasy buying macdonalds to eat when we sneak out.

2 sets of mcspicy meal. with ice milo. oh my god la.
now i finally know whats making me grow rounder.
this has to stop. hahahah. but i still love the feeling of just hanging out at the basketball court..
eating our macdonalds.. looking at the stars and talking about every single thing. HAH.

have been feeling rather down past few days due to parents and my life.
i didn't know what i wanted in life. like no goals. no dreams.
it's kinda frustrating to live life each day just like that..
and i have also been wondering what i should do to solve family issues.
dear being so caring actually bought me chocolates to cheer me up.
it's still in my room perfectly fine and not eaten:)

recently we also went to sentosa. just lazing around in the sun..
enjoying the sea.. and playing with the fishes.
the fishes are really cute. i shall take a picture of them next time.
they just swim around you in the sea.. but you won't be able to catch them..
they SIAM away from your hand very fast. ahahah.

our footprints in the sand.

the smaller one is mine obviously hahahah.
we took a photo of us in the sea but it doesn't really show that we're in the sea so i didn't post it up.. but it was very adventurous to bring my beloved camera into the sea and just try to take a picture of us with the waves coming iin. hahah.

i think i have finally manage to straighten up my thoughts

it's time i make decisions in my life. on my own.

i do what i want. but dont force me to do things that you guys doesn't like.

dont try to control me like how you did when i am 15. it's not going to work.

i respect you as my parents and keep to my promises of what time i will be home.

you better not try to control me to where i go and who i am with.

i am already 19 this year. i know what is right and wrong.

so don't decide which path i should take in my life now.

i guess it's time for me to just start working. be independent and be responsible for my own life.

i shall now work. train hard for shooting and live happily with my dear.

signing off <33
Monday, May 11, 2009

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

dear is back. a few days ago to be exact. haha.
what a surprised for me :)
he call me at 12 plus midnight telling me he's outside my house. haha.
went to meet him and ate macdonalds..
then we talk and chill out together till morning i think.. hahah.
i can't be much happier. seriously.

why do you only care now? just because you are not attached?
do you wish that we could be back to who we are like 3 years ago?
i'm not angry but the fact that you response after reading my blog entry makes me feel diappointed. it's definitely very nice to know that someone out there care about me.. but it's just really disappointing..
do you even care when i am so depressed in the past.
or could i even say that you don't even read my blog in the past.

i can't really take the stress i'm facing at home.
it's the constant thinking that happens in my mind thats killing me alive.
i don't know how i should just face them.
i dont wish to talk.. seriously i dont.
so just let go. they are letting go. but unwillingly.
the attitude i'm getting.
it sucks. sigh.. i don't need any guidance.
cause this time round i wish i could handle all this alone.
but now i am doubting myself.. whether i could..

signing off <33
Tuesday, May 05, 2009