oh my god.
face swollen!! got hit directly by a soccer ball.

play futsal today. don't really like it.
but it was fun la. hahahs.
i cried when i got hit.
it felt as though i got slapped my by dad thrice on my face.
but i know accidents happen so i don't blame zi gui so much la.
i even msg him cause i felt bad that i ignored him when he shows his concern. hahahs!

now that the argument btw the 2 classes is making me feel kinda bad.
indirectly it's because of me..
sigh why become like that. :(

ok i'll write in details soon! :)

signing off <33
Thursday, May 22, 2008

ok i'm not feeling that good this few day. i was kinda irritated and pissed off with numerous issues.

wednesday's training.
hmmm coach ho nv come, only the china coach ma.
indeed, i agree that she teach me a lot of stuff and help me alot in my grips and stuff.
without her, i might not learn about the importance of focusing on the gun rather that on the target. HOWEVER, she nags a lot. as in really a lot. even when you are shooting she nags and nags and nags non stop. reminding us to focus on the gun and pull the trigger. she also stress me so much that i almost cry that day cause i was so worried that i can't meet her expectations of wanting 88 per series of 10 shots. i shot alright in the day. and after a super stress training, the J2s gather round the table to talk while waiting for ms ang to come and close the range.

i don't understand. you say we were noisy throughout the whole training. so are you trying to indicate that we talk while we shoot. is it posible? i seriously don' understand. you think we can stand the caoch naggings? you think we like it? we don't alright. so you can't push the blame to us right. we finish training, it's normal for us to talk a little and laugh. if it's too loud for you then i'm very sorry. but when you tell me about her trying out for rifle, i was furious. total furious. it is total IMPOSSIBLE that the coach will want her to go try out rifle when she's a pistoler. i was puzzled. totally puzzled after that. and i was pissed off. i don't like it when you guys let your relationship stuff into the shooting club. you wanna couple here and there outside i don't mind but please don't bring it in to the training and the way how things should work. there are other couples in the club as well. why aren't the others behaving the way you are like insisting that you stand next to each other. the lane is spoilt? are you sure? no i don't think so. i ask the coach about her trying out for rifle today, cause i seriously think that there is a need to clarify it. and in the end she told me she had never say it at all before! alright. the above is the anger i felt AT THAT MOMENT i know we are still friends and i hope we can still be friends forever. i just don't wish to hide this in my heart. i will feel very terrible. very.

i have been quarrelling with my mommy this few days. she's becoming kinda very paranoid.
guess it's due to the reason that i have been staying out late the whole week due to studiesa and extra lesson. i also stay in school to study and stuff cause i find it more condusive. i seriously hope she can understand me more. like i'm takign As and i think i need the space and freedom not to play but the freedom to study outside till late nights and stuff. i seriously hope they understand. if they don'ti will feel so miserable that even my own parents can't understand me(!). sighs.

this feeling is not good. i don't like it. i don't feel like talking to anyone.

today. lessons were alright. i had a paper cut on my finger today. crap. on my 2nd finger. the finger use to pull the trigger. kinda had a slight negative effect on my shooting. or is it an excuse that i cook up for my bad peformance? i don't know. kinda felt sad and pissed off at myself. thanks for your massage, greatly appreciate. really. and you, playing with me, do bring me some laughters that i don't have throughout the whole morning. thanks loads.

on a much happier note, i went to watch movie with darlie and jia today.
ironman. i like~
it's the first movie with darlie. i love it.
i love the silence between us and just by walking side by side with her. feels good.
we don't have to keep talking. and she's my gossip partner:)
we love to irritate each other and laugh non stop after that.
and and we think alike as well! right right?! hahahs.
alright talking bout darlie definitely makes me feel much happier.

back to studying again. alright. long long post. no photos though. i will try to post some soon.
i don't wanna copy lecture notes! i wanna pass my periodicity test! argh!!! headache! crap.

signing off <33
Friday, May 09, 2008

today! (020508)
labour day holiday was a good day for me to sleep in whole day and thats what i did! hahahs.

signing off <33
Saturday, May 03, 2008

wednesday (300408)
it was sports day! fun fun and more fun.
i told myself, i want to be enthu bout it cause this might be the last sports day that i'm going to take part in. so i scream and shout with cherie. runnign aorund and takign loads of picture. i took part in the event 8 x50m too and we won! third! woohoos. first medal that i got. \not related to shooting. hahahs! happy me. alright a picture paints a thousand words.
cherie. me and sophia. wining the event together!

signing off <33
Friday, May 02, 2008